Intent and Sentiment

She wanted very much to confront her father with her doubts.
Not unused to the proud man’s nature of omission and vagueness, most particularly of matters pertaining to family history, the 38 years experience as his daughter was qualification enough to doubt the original claim.
“It belonged to my grandmother,” he said as he watched her eyes [...]

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Maturity Is Overrated

Ever feel like screaming yourself blue
Why is it that’s something we can’t do
Unless we’re two
It’s not like life gets easier
It’s not like life slows down
Age doesn’t prove that it’s better to wear a fake smile
Than it is to express an honest frown
So why can’t I tantrum and cry my eyes out
Why do I have to [...]

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November Is

November is not just my birthday
It’s also the month I left home
Three weeks shy of 16
Five weeks shy of pregnant and alone
I used to celebrate that day with cake and a candle
Proof that I could take this life and do more than just handle
But it soon got old and
November was just cold
Always another year older
Yet [...]

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When The Midol Wears Off

What do you mean what’s wrong with me?
I’m a little irritated, am I not allowed to be?
I do everything around here, so little I ask
Is it too much to think you could do this one task
I’m not freaking out, I think I’m quite fine
It’s just that nobody gets how hard it is, this life of [...]

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Never Before

Last night, for the first time ever
I heard myself say
“I’m alright and everything’s okay”
Even as the words left my lips I questioned it
And had to stop and make sure
I wasn’t just blowing smoke
I wasn’t just trying to appease
I really am at ease
I have found some peace
Never before have I been so sure I am just [...]

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Unlike My Extended

I will not pretend I don’t hear his cries
I will not stand by your obvious lies
Unlike my extended who left me in the wind
I refuse to be the hushed and silent kind
He is hurting and I feel his pain
I may never get the chance again
To make a difference just when it matters
This family, already in [...]

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Makes Perfect Sense

My tender ego needing your approval so badly
My less than stellar ability to communicate effectively
Has me walking on egg shells and trying not to break down in tears
Oh how I loathe all these insecurities and never ending fears
I’m a great mother and a good wife
I really have done well with my life
Makes perfect sense to [...]

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It Feels Too Much Like Owing

I try again to negotiate my way through
Letting my heart dictate my gentle words
And to my dismay it turns out the same way
Just like every other time we’ve performed this play
I just want you to hear me out before you get offended
I just want you to know that I can’t stand pretended
It feels too much [...]

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What’s Fair?

Just when I want to stick out my bottom lip
Just when I want to put my hand on my hip
Just when I think stomping my foot is in order
Just when I’m sure that on a full out tantrum I’ll border
I am slapped in the face by my own experience
Life is so many things, the least [...]

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I Thought a Hiccup

I’m disheveled, I’m utterly undone
I thought we were all for and for one
I tried reaching out to bridge
And you simply furthered the gap
What I thought a mere hiccup
You’ve turned into an all out spat
That you’ve spared no expense
To share the consequence
With those who know nothing of our past
With those who know nothing of our dynamic
What [...]

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